The Grandchildren

What happened with Jessalynn Christmas was caused by an old problem caused by a mistake I seem to make over and over. Or maybe it's just the way it is because I'm so flawed. My grandchildren, one of my children, have No Respect for me. Maybe I don't think about it enough? I don't seem to realize that no one respects me until it slaps me in the face. It has to be my fault. I assume that people respect me because I see myself as someone who Should Have the respect of people. I manage to take care of my family no matter how little I have to do it. I have good morals that I base my life on and try to teach others.  But I must be just totally missing something.  I think back over my relationship with Jessalynn and see now that she has never really Treated me with respect. We have spent a lot of time together. I have been the person she turned to for advice and help or just the one she called if she was sad or sick. But I have allowed a large measure of closeness that you wou...

This one hurts the most. Easy Why. The one I believed loved me most. The one I put the most into.  The one who finds me, personally, disgusting. She said it is because of how I treat Jeremy. Her mother is almost always mean to him and she went to stay with Jeanette who has literally spit in his face. Plus she ragged on me to throw him out for Months and talked of nothing but how much she hates him. The girls I called The Apple of My Eye, and then my Unicorn, who I would have given my life for. Says. I'M. DISGUSTING. I knew she was mean. Overlooked it time after time. She would laugh at people I pitied.  She never forgave a slight. But I always thought she was better than she was. She cried over TV shows!! I just knew there was real Heart there just hidden by Youth.  I was wrong.